Humility Post 4

“Every act of virtue which does not proceed from a supernatural motive, in order to bring us to everlasting bliss, is of no value.”

How’s that for some not-so-light reading? Ha.

I feel like I can drive myself crazy considering my intentions in life. As I’ve written before, I love making people laugh. But what’s my intention behind comedy? Simple ego? And if it’s not ego, say that I really am motivated by pure intentions to add levity to our days and be a friendly face, then in admitting that or concluding that I probably have taken too prideful a position. Who am I to possess the power to enrich someone’s day?

At least in the little book on humility that I am now reading, the relevance of intentions is on full display. If there’s anything I’ve learned over the beginning part of this semester’s work on humility, it is that my personality is big. That’s true for good or bad. I don’t even know how to behave if I am forced to go into a veritable stealth mode. People who come to know me call me out and ask what’s wrong if I don’t actively participate in life.

One thing that is particularly intriguing to me this last week is the idea of announcing humility. The author warns that the moment we believe we’re humble, we stop being humble. Cool. I get it. But I am not so sure I understand what humility looks like, then.

In the past, I’ve defined my sense of humor as “cosmic humor”. I liked that description because it captured that I thought life itself was funny and moreover that I thought my thoughts were funny, because who am I to have thoughts at all? Some random human? And now, if I don’t think life is funny at all, but a serious endeavor that can be royally messed up, can I still have a cosmic sense of humor in the second sense? In the, “Who am I ask anyone to take me seriously?” sense.

I don’t know. These reflections aren’t coming that naturally, as I’m sure you can tell. I guess overall I feel like I am gaining some head knowledge about the importance of constant recognition of our status as creatures vs. creators. But my life isn’t too bad right now, and it’s difficult to not draw cause and effect relationships that begin with me doing the right thing in seeking God as the first cause, even though I intellectually conclude that God initiated the whole shebang (relationship). Who knows? For now, I’m just thankful for my fair portion of health and my daughter and the list goes on.

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3 comments

  1. Aimer Boyz

    “Who am I to have thoughts at all?” That’s taking humble to an extreme. Stealing from the Desiderata,
    “You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
    you have a right to be here.”
    Which, to me, means you have a right to think…and make us laugh. Thank you šŸ™‚

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    • Pete Deakon

      Good response. It reminded me that I should’ve known better as I reflected last night. Only a couple weeks ago did I (apparently not well enough) memorize the psalmist’s “When I think of thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, what is man that thou art mindful of him?… Thou hast made him a little lower than the angels and crowned him with glory and honor.” (Forgive the King James Version, I just prefer its enduring theatrical quality at times. šŸ˜‰ )

      Glory and honor. I’ll humbly consent.

      Pete

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