Tagged: God

Don’t Own Him

How far should we allow good intentions to go?  At what point is a good intention a bad reality?  At what point does a good intention become a disservice to itself?  After all, intention requires intending.  That is, the act of trying to accomplish something.

A song at church the other day had the lyrics “Our God…”

I’ve been taking some writing courses recently, and am becoming more aware of people’s use of language and word choice.  I’m also just returning to church after nearly a decade.  Together, those two reasons create a skeptical approach.  I know what I believe.  But I’m not convinced that what I believe is what you believe, so I look for clues.

Back to “Our God.”  Here’s the problem.  “Our” creates, whether intended or not, “your.”  In the case of God, there is no “your.”  If you’re like me, you know there is just God.  If you’re like me, you’re done with the, “Well, other people all across the globe use the word ‘god’ as well, but their ‘god’ isn’t our ‘God’ so we need to clarify it” feeling.

I say allow no room for doubt, allow no room for discussion, allow no room for misinterpretation.

Life should be lived assertively.  Life should be lived unabashedly.  Life should be lived wholeheartedly.

God is not my god.  God is not your god.  God is not our god.  God is.  Or as He put it, “I am.”

Jesus chose death over compromise.  Like any great teacher, He can be puzzling.  How could a man preach ‘love’ and not compromise?  I don’t fully know, but I have a suspicion that together we’ll figure it out.

For now, just don’t own Him.  His very nature demands it.

Memory’s Blessed Burden

Some pilots in Top Gun wore polo shirts under their flight suits.  “Majesty” was number 33 in his 3rd grade Sunday school chorus book.  MC Hammer appeared on Saturday Night Live on the opening weekend of The Addams Family movie.  His dad put up a giant cardboard “Guess Who’s 30?” sign in the front yard on July 16, 1986.  When playing catch with Jerry, it was easier to catch a raquet ball in the ol’ timey baseball mitt than a baseball.  His 3rd grade friend slept during class in the Janet Jackson concert t-shirt he obtained at the concert the night before.  Two loser sophomores attempted to intimidate him on the first day of highschool.   His name was on the scoreboard at the Toledo Mud Hens game on his birthday.  The vomit formed the shape of a baseball diamond in the corner of the stairwell at that same game.  (Icks-nay on blue kool-aid.)  Pastor Craig teared up at the end of some sermons.  Jerry buried fool’s gold so that he could find treasure.

He could remember all these random things and more.  Remembering so much was not without a burden.  That burden was knowing where the gaps were.  The burden was that he knew precisely what he could not remember.

Listening to the sermon, he was uncomfortable.  Unable to ward off comparison and criticism, he longed for the memory of just a single sermon Pastor Craig gave.  Was it the delivery?  The rhythm?  The message?  He needed something to help him make sense of why today’s sermon sounded so backwards.  Hmmmm…errrrrr.  Nothing.  Ugh!

Then a new thought occurred.  Surrounding the gaps in his memory were Pastor Craig’s actions, which by definition were memorable.  He remembered them to be authentic and full of integrity.  He remembered feeling that the pastor loved him.  What exactly did the pastor do to make him feel loved?  The pastor aimed an intense focus on him.  The kind of focus that is only made possible by living in the moment.  Pastor Craig exemplified living in the moment.

At least, that’s how he remembered it.

Are You Singing?

How can He hear us, if I can’t?

You should understand that I believe that in this world that God created, everything that happens is part of God’s plan.  Everything.  The good, the bad — everything.  How could it not be?  The catch is we, the humans, are always able to change what is happening, to improve it or maybe to take a step back and say, “Hmm, maybe this was a mistake.”  It is an enormous amount of responsibility.

Anyone who knows me knows I love Metallica.  Their music demands to be performed on electric guitars and amplified drums.  I think most would agree that all heavy metal should be amplified.  It’s kind of the nature of the beast.

Anyone who knows me knows I also love classical music.  Classical music (classical meaning ‘the best’) is written for acoustic instruments, and rightly so.  Something magical happens when music is acoustic.  Something so magical, that over the years many have remarked that classical music is surely the voice of God.  I have always liked this metaphor if only because it highlights that music is a universal language.

I’d like to take the metaphor a bit further.  If mankind was created in God’s own image, and music can have the effect of sounding like the voice of God, what about when we sing?  Wouldn’t our “made in God’s image” voices actually sound closer to how God’s voice sounds?  (Assuming of course, that He has a voice.)

I point this out because, again, in my recent visits to a church, I have been perplexed by the changes.  There is an amplified band singing, words are displayed on the screen, no written music is anywhere to be found, and I can hardly hear anyone over the band, save the person standing next to me.  (Great voice, btw.)  It most certainly is not music to my ears.

Worship via music is one of the main reasons I see for going to church.  I have always liked singing in a large group.  I liked it as a kid at church, I liked it in the Air Force on those special occasions, and I like the idea of it now.  I think singing, especially large groups of men singing, is just great.  Doesn’t everyone?

I think I know what is going on.  I bet that over the years, like in all other areas of life, people’s enthusiasm has been waning.  Who wants other people to hear that they can’t sing a note?  It does take some energy to sing, too, and we’re inherently lazy.  So at first the music leader’s volume gets turned up, the thinking being that it might encourage more people to sing if they aren’t afraid of being heard.  Then a band is introduced instead of a piano or organ.  Now we can all pretend that we’re singing, and no one will ever know the difference.  At least that’s how I see it.

As for me, I want people to sing out loud.  I want to sing out loud.  I want to feel the power in the music.  I want to hear the voice of God.  I want guests to visit and feel the inescapable love that is expressed when a group of like-minded people worship with music.

The easy answer is to find another church.  Should this be about easy though?  I don’t know.  I just don’t know.

If I was a pastor, I’d want to hear the congregation sing.  I’d use it like a thermometer.  I think even the most accurate digital thermometer would tell a pastor of churches like I described above, “Meh.  Lukewarm.”

But that’s just me.  What do you think?